Friday, July 24, 2009

Allergies

In the past two weeks, I've learned of three people that I know becoming pregnant by accident. It makes me so angry. Here we are planning our lives around trying to conceive, and these people are just haphazardly getting knocked up! I used to pity these people. I used to shake my head and say to myself, "That's too bad." Now I think something more along the lines of, "Damn it. Hurry up in there!" while looking at my stomach. But honestly, I don't understand how half these people are getting pregnant "by accident". Are they allergic to birth control?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Fashionably Late, Or Not Coming At All?

The first month we tried to get pregnant, we didn't. I was sad and disappointed, and that honestly surprised me. It surprised me because I didn't really expect to get pregnant after only trying for one month, and it surprised me because I didn't realize that I could actually want this MORE. Another thing that surprised me is that a little part of me felt like my body failed me. I felt like, "Okay, I did everything I was supposed to do, so why aren't you working?!?" Which, I know, is just so crazy to feel after only one month. This month finally came and we "tried" again. I took a pregnancy test 3 days before my missed period and it was negative. Sad and disappointed again. Now, 3 days later, I'm supposed to have started my period, and it's still not here. I am trying so hard not to get my hopes up... Since I took the test 3 days early, it's only about 82% accurate. I'm forcing myself to wait until tomorrow before I buy another test. Ugh! The worst part is the 12 days between "trying" and getting your period. It's torture! I can never wait until my missed period, so I spend $10 on a pregnancy test every month (which still may not be right!). We'll see...